Hello coco8, I am so very glad that you are here and that you have decided to share with us.
I am 50, ,y mom has been an alcoholic my whole life, she has never quit, the best she does is cut down from 6 bottles of wine a day to 3, then she gradually works her way back up to 6.
She is a mean, nasty, hateful person. I have been trying for years to forgive her, I have not been able to do it, it has resulted in pain, anger, and depression.
Please don't follow me down this road, get to an ala-teen meeting, join an acoa chapter of al-anon, stay in counseling.
Hate will eat you up, it has me, for a long time I was a person no one wanted to be around.
Please come back often and tell us how you are doing.
Bill