Anon, yes exactly.. I feel like I am giving up on him. He says he can't do it if I go.. I am so torn. Am listening to my head for once. The thought of living without him is very difficult, but at the same time it's liberating. I feel guilty for saying it. Am so worried for him, I feel like Im letting him down. I know I can be strong for him and my kids but I'm just so tired that no one is strong for me! Thanks for your support! Am depending on this forum, it helps so much. Xx