at night...
Is when I feel the silence the most and pain is apparent. Kids asleep but I am alone with my thoughts. Obsessing over my separated AH and what he is doing, who he is with, why our hard work didn't pay off. I feel right now like I am in such a dark place. I feel like he was a tornado that swept through my life, sucked the life out of me and left this mess I have to clean up. I have to deal with our 4 year old baby girls constant asking for him. I am so angry with him. He just walks away and it is so easy for him. He says its not easy for him and I disagree. He walked away very easily and abandoned our family. I feel like I am losing my mind...how can this be happening to me, once again? I am tired of this life, this pain is just overwhelming.