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Old 05-24-2012, 08:38 AM
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wonderfullife
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yes, I have noticed that the pleasure of it is going away. other than that initial rush, and a few hours after that, the negatives far outweigh the positives. I have really tried AVRT. At least the online course. However, after 15 years, the habit, the rush, the triggers just seem to win out at that 4pm hour when I am driving home alone. I think AVRT will be a very good tool. My problem is first getting a full committment going. Thats why I am so curious as to everyone's experiences on the first few days of there permanent abstinence. What changed in your mind/heart/soul, to just keep you looking down the recovery path and not look back. I'm frustrated with this taking up so much of my life, but I am more frustrated with the part of me that will feel the endorphan rush of the liquor store this weekend. I would love to say that I am not going to go, but I don't trust myself yet to say that.
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