Be gentle with yourself as somedays will be difficult and you will CRAVE him...the fix. Addicts are like birds waiting for the crumbs to fall off the table at an outdoor cafe....they know it's coming so they will stay close by and bite the first chance they get.
What I'm going to do this time to remind no contact is to reach out when I'm having that craving to speak with him and let go of feeling embarrassed of having those cravings.
What are you going to do when you crave a fix of him?