Thanks guys.
Yes, if I keep doing the same crap I am not going to get anywhere.
So that is the plan. I will do more things with my day and really look for a job...I think anyone could get depressed and dwell on all the negatives if they sat at home by themselves all day.
You know what, that is true.
Drinking one day and the three day binge is the same thing...
For alcoholics it is anyways.
So I need to not think that I can drink like a "regular" drinker.
I belong being sober.