Originally Posted by
bayliss 
I literally dropped to my knees earlier, bawled my eyes out and asked God for help.
I can't stop crying today!
That's the way a lot of people have started. Admitting powerlessness is never easy - we all want to at least have the illusion of control over our every day lives. Paradoxically, though, giving up your will to a power greater than yourself is actually the most determined move you can make in your position.
Now that you've turned that duty over, you don't have to worry about it any more. If you feel like you want a drink, ask your boss whether or not you can have one. If your boss is anything like mine, you will hear a patient and overly-long explanation that basically just boils down to, 'NO!'
Congratulations on getting started. You're on your way to something great.