would it be possible to transverse the Big Plan statement of "I will never drink/use again" to something positive -- "I will ALWAYS remain sober, no matter what"
My beast finds it quite troubling to say that... and even when I have convinced myself by saying the former... I cannot dissociate myself from my beast it seems FOR GOOD. After a week or ten days I still get unbearable cravings. However... I DO enjoy my sober lifestyle moreso than my addictive one. Perhaps changing the language of the Big Plan will help me? Or if I cannot make a Big Plan using Never than it is really not a big plan and I will not dissociate myself from the beast for good?
Last Monday I woke up and I was fet up and I said the statement "I will never do this again, for the rest of my life, it's over" I beleived and there was very little head talk going on until Saturday morning when I got an unbearable craving and then before I knew it I was on autopilot. What did I do wrong?