Thanks for your feedback Pelican
Well, I say 2 days max because ever since 2010 we have spent literally every day/night together (besides when we are at work) up until he left for Rehab. But I am loving my time alone- to sleep in my own bed by myself (and not have my room smell disgusting which I realized after he left and looked into was him). I work out everyday and a few weeks before he left I started a very healthy eating routine so I am feeling pretty good about myself lately. My life with him before he left consisted of work and coming home to sit in bed and watch tv while he stood in the room and drank. It was so boring and we lost all of any "spark" left and did not have a very good sex life. When he comes out I don't plan to EVER be at home. When we do see eachother it will be out of the house- going to movies/dinner, and spending ALOT of time outside this summer- walking, hiking, biking, mini golf, picnics, the beach, etc. I am open to try anything new so hopefully we can find some hobbies we both enjoy- together and apart and have a good balanced active life.
Right now I believe he is under the impression he will still be sleeping at my house most of the time. I think it would crush him to say that he can never spend a night at my house. I guess it wouldn't be a set schedule of nights- whenever we feel like it. I just don't know how to handle this. I've never dealt with anything like this before. I know I am a "codie". And I do not want to be one. i am ready to be strong and say "no go home". I'm so confused- about my feelings for him (right now I feel more sorry/pity for him than "in love" feelings). I don't know if we can ever get that spark back. I should probably get some therapy but I don't have any insurance, I will have to look into any options I have where I live. sorry for the rant, I am just so so confused....
