Hello, Eddie & Sherry!! The pain has got worse, not better, so I keep praying that the pain will just go away!! I got a job at Denny's and I go to orientation on Thursday, at 5:15pm (yes, tomorrow)!! Things are really bad here at home.....Russell is still doing what he always does, but since I'm not sick like I was last year, I miss him when he is doing his deal so last Sunday, I went with him and faked it the whole night even though I was miserable!! He came home an hour ago and took some money and left!! No sex tonight!! It is hard to stay sober in this environment but I just don't leave for some reason!! Plus, my computer has been acting up and it is rare that my internet explorer is not performing an illegal function and closing on me!! I just got lucky tonight I guess!! I'm sorry I made ya'll worry!! Just so much pain!! Hugs & luv, Samantha