Thanks for all of the insight. I felt so psychologically attacked last night. It was almost worse than being hit. I feel like I was totally manipulated into giving him more information when his whole point was to humiliate and weaken me. I know I did nothing wrong to him. Maybe he's afraid of the strength I'm showing and he knows that I won't come home until he gets help, so this is his way of breaking me down and making our breakup my fault. But I don't want him back. That someone who claims to love me could make me feel this way
is unreal and it shows a complete lack of real love. I could never do this to him even after all he's done to me. He made me feel low last night and unworthy and dirty and that's with me knowing I have never cheated. It's scary that he can control me that way and it makes him a very sick and dangerous person. Being away is the BEST thing I can do. I'm starting to see that all of the "good" times are an illusion.