Welcome to the SR family!
I'm glad you found us, but sorry for the reasons that brought you here.
I was married to my alcoholic for 14 years. My children were one of the main reasons I finally left. I realized I was modeling an unhealthy relationship to my children.
I did not want my son growing up and treating his future relationship partner the way my AXH (alcoholic ex husband) was treating me.
I also did not want my daughter growing up and accepting the unacceptable behaviors I was accepting from her future relationship partner.
While I tried to make my plan to leave, I had to find a way to live in the present situation. I found a post here at SR that contained steps which helped me while living with active alcoholism.
Here is a link to the post that helped me:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-problem.html