That darn roller-coaster....I remember it well. A friend said the breaking up part was like "surgery with a hacksaw"........so sad.....I am 4 1/2 yrs after divorce and now as the pain dulls- it is like looking back at old pictures. I have to remember the "bad" things- the dealbreakers.....I am very into the Codependent's Anonymous book now. I relate to the stories. Meeting makers make it too- you may want to hit one a day for awhile if you can......my last nights Alanon was on honesty. I know one thing for sure- I will never live with active addiction again. Glad we are all on the recovery road together- it helps to not feel alone in this ca ca.