Curmudgeon, Electrical Engineer, Guitar God Wannabe
Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Where the mighty arms of Atlas hold the heavens from the Earth
Posts: 3,403
Everyone...
Thank you for the feedback. It's nice to read the thoughts of others that can relate to what you're talking about, especially on this board where people have wisdom in spades.
I'm not quite sure if I'm carrying resentment. Every night, I say a prayer for my AXGF, asking God to keep her safe. It's my form of compassion, recognizing that she's sick and giving her over to a Higher Power. But forgiveness has been a tougher issue because of the reasons I gave. If I judge her unworthy of forgiveness, do I judge myself the same way?
I guess the answer is we're all human. None of us have a perfect resume, and we're all guilty of behaving poorly towards others from time to time. I think what we all work towards is reducing how often we go off on others. For me, I think I can show compassion towards my AXGF, recognizing her illness for what it is. Forgiveness, I hope, will come in time.
Thanks, everyone...
ZoSo