Thinking this is it for me......
For the last 10 years I have rationalized every hurtful thing that has been said to me from ah. Maybe I am just hard to live with? Maybe I am crazy?
The latest thing is he says I am psycotic (sp) and he is on day 3 of completly ignoring me.
I want to believe that this is alcoholic behavior, but how do I KNOW that it is him and not me being hard to live with or crazy?
And if I do leave, how do you deal with knowing that his crazy ass will end up with someone else?? You would think that there would not be anyone else out there to put up with the drinking, but he is young, good looking and has a good job so I am sure there will be plenty lined up to take him up on his offers.
I know financially for me it wont be a problem. A little bit different lifestyle but I won't be broke or homeless.
The only thing holding me back is throwing out the 20 years we have together.
Somebody help me through this....