Another test
Tomorrow night will be a test to my sobriety.
I'm going over to my sister in laws for a girls night in. She is unaware of my difficulties with the bottle, and I haven't told her I've quit. She's not somebody I choose to confide in. Her husband and mine are brothers and big drinkers and will be at my house so there's no way of getting out of this.
I'm fairly confident that I will be able to resist but the wine will be flowing so I've got to work out a strategy of how I'm going to deal with this.
At the moment I'm just thinking of saying that I'm unable to drink because it has made me feel unwell recently and doesn't react well with medication I'm taking. This is in part the truth anyway.
This night has been planned for months and has always been at the back of my mind as potentially being a problem.
Shame I won't be able to spend the eve checking in on SR cos that would keep me strong!
I know I shouldn't really go but staying at home isn't an option for me either as this place will full of very drunk men!
Think it's going to be a very long evening!
Wish me luck!