I think you know deep down the amount you drink will end up shortening your life. Trying to quit for a month and not being able to is a bad sign. For me, it just got worse and worse, never better.
I think stopping for a while to heal your liver and thinking you'll go back to it and have it not be a problem is a fantasy.
P.S. : I'm guessing from your username you're a BASE jumper, I hope you're not jumping objects while drunk like I was