Welcome to SR, Troll. You say that you know alcohol is a problem for you, but the alternative (being bored) is as bad or worse, right? Alcohol used to be fun for me too. Until it wasn't. Like Sugarbear, I'm not really sure what you're looking for. The good people of this forum can support you in sobriety; but mostly what I'm getting from your posts is that you're looking for reassurances that it's okay for you to drink. I honestly don't mean that harshly....I'm just a little confused about what you're seeking.
--Fenris.