I am only on day 7 and feel too much like a rookie to add other than awful experiences which you seem familiar with already. I agree with what's been said above. Give some info on this Saturday thing. Whatever it is it seems that this is tripping you up and needs to be avoided at all costs. I have done AA and counseling and found both to be immensely helpful particularly the latter. AA though puts you in with other people just like you and it is a very warm and supportive feeling. You don't have to say anything - ever - if you don't want to and you won't be criticized or laughed at. Eventually you will laugh with everyone and maybe at yourself.