Hi all. This seems to be a great place to be with people that understand this horrible addiction.
I'm feeling desperate lately to quit drinking. The mental obsession is So strong however. Saturday (I'm around drinkers that day, no way out of it) is my struggle right now. I feel pretty strong all week but Saturday comes and it is like I forget how desperately I want sobriety. It's insanity, my addictive voice just says I'm drinking and my mind is made up.
Sunday morning, repeatedly, I am in the deepest, blackest hole of depression, almost suicidal, I entertain the idea (although I don't think I ever would). And it lasts for 3 days or more. It's insane that I allow myself to keep doing this.
I'm feeling very desperate.
Any advice is appreciated. If I can stay sober on even one Saturday it would help me realize that I can do it. So far, I haven't been able to hold on. Thanks all, this is a great place.