(((puddinface))) - I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I think you probably remember, but I'm both an RA and a loved one of A's...a recovering codie.
Had my family not loved me enough to let me dig myself into a really deep hole, hit bottom, and figure my way OUT of the hole (still working on it, 5+ years into recovery), I don't know that I would be here. Pretty sure I wouldn't.
My dad told me of all the times he wondered if I was dead or alive. My stepmom told me of all the times he cried at the sheer helplessness that he felt.
I can't undo that. The best I can do is thank him...thank you for letting me fall, thank you for letting me deal with my consequences, thank you for letting me back in your life when my ACTIONS showed recovery. Thank you for knowing that I slip? I'm out..on my own.
I will say extra prayers for you and your son.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy