I am free from counting the days until I would next be getting insanely drunk. Free from feeling shame and guilt everytime I wake up and a family member/friend says we were talking for hours the night before and I don't even remember seeing them. Free from the terror or what I might have said, if I offended them, how many times I repeated myself during the conversation... free from the fear of what I was putting my body through! The list is endless really. What a way to live :-/