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Old 05-09-2012, 12:33 AM
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hardy
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Location: Bakersfield, CA
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It was the Friday before. I was clean 5 days then slipped. Its now been 12 days in a row. 5 days before that minus that Friday. Its not just tylenol pm its tylenol. I'm purposely trying to kill myself without trying to kill myself. I'm depressed. Depression was something I battled before drugs and now I'm off drugs but depression worse than ever. I go to meetings Tue wed and Thur at local mental health clinic. They are early recovery groups. I have a counselor that knows I'm suicidal and is watching me. I am trying. Without drugs though my depression is out of control. I am honest and real but depression is kicking my ass. I haven't touched the meth. I want sobriety but my mind wants to die.
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