So you're going to the meetings because you're required to and you're not getting anything out of it. Forgive me for asking but do you feel like a dry drunk? I've just noticed that none of your posts that i've come across seem to lack any motivation or pride in your sobriety. Like just going through the motions. I've been in rehab and meetings with people who were court ordered to be there and i found that they sucked the life out of the meeting. Other people are out there trying to work out their issues and get to the reason their life has become unmanagable and you're there to avoid court. Have some respect for those 13 year old girls who are digging deep and finding the strength inside to bring those boogymen deep in their souls to the surface in front of strangers.