I'm in the same boat although my Beast is laying low today. Having a total block against committing to a BP.
What I am finding interesting to analyze is WHY I am having so much trouble. The Beast knows I am going to Europe for 2 weeks this summer and "how can you possibly go to Europe and not drink?" My Beast is winning the battle over this because I (me, Pam, not Beast) is thinking the same thing.
So, I am not having problems staying sober now, but I am seriously not confident of going to France without Beast.
Work in progress.
Hope your beastie-boy settles down - it is not pleasant when he throws a fit. I am looking forward to (eventually) kicking him out of my head forever.
Pam