Thank you RedCandle.
I am able to put on the face of 'happiness". I do it for my kids since they don't know what is going on. I'm sure my son has an idea but doesn't know what it is. He's smart and notices that aren't anymore kisses and hugs, which we were always doing in front of them. But, since things have been crazy with planing his party, I was able to somehow get him through that.
I do know that my family and friends will have open arms and be there for all 3 of us. It is going to be tough. I just still can't believe my marriage fall apart without my knowledge. I have to remember that my AH has a disease and is very sick. It just hurts all the same. I also don't want anyone putting their 2 cents in when it comes to the kids and what we agree on. Some people are just ridiculous and think they know what's best. I know what's best.