Oh, I see....
You know...I did that too!
The most horrid result of that was that I sunk so deep into my misery and resentment...that I didn't show up at a family wedding.
I was so angry and so sullen...and had put on the smiley face for SO LONG...that I just couldn't bare to go to the wedding and take happy family photos and hold his hand and act like everything was lovely.
I just couldn't do it...so I didn't...
And because know one knew what was going on with ME, everyone was so upset at me! "Why did she blow it off?" "Did she have something BETTER to do??" "What's HER problem??"
I've truly been there.
I didn't want people to think that I was trying to make everything about ME.
The funny thing was, when I finally crashed and burned and unleashed all the stories about what *I* had been going through...the floodgates of emotional and mental support blew open. I found open arms. I wish I would have found them sooner!
That doesn't happen in every situation...I know.
But sometimes....people surprise you.
I hope you are soon surprised by how much love you can find in sharing with your family. I hope they are there for you and the kids!