Thanks for reminding me of that TU. I realized my beast just loves to have me watch the show Intervention for that very reason. It loves to compare my drinking habits with other people's. It would say "Look at her, she's a bottle a day vodka drinker, you just drink a bottle of wine a day.... So you're not over the top, go ahead keep up with your drinking"
I also (or it also) strangely reveled when people on the show relapsed. I wasn't jealous, I was strangely happy. I think it was because the beast was sending me the message "see, nothing works on this problem anyway. Expensive treatment leads to relapse anyway, so you might as well keep drinking"
I wonder how many people who watch the show are actually helped watching these extreme cases of addiction, and how many are like me..... Use it as an excuse to continue.