Thank you all so much. You have no idea how much it means to hear your kind words. I'm sorry any of us have had this experience. Just today, I finally allowed myself to tell a close friend everything I've been going through which, in and of itself, makes me proud that I was finally able to talk about it. I also made arrangements to go to my first Alanon meeting tomorrow night! Wish me luck that this gives me the strength to get through this in a way that's best for me and my daughter!