Originally Posted by
Gavinandnikki 
Memories of good times with a nice buzz - many years of them. Somehow the good times turned bad. Doesn't really matter why, it just did, and there will no longer be "good times" associated with drinking . Those days are gone forever- yeah, I grieve that. I now accept that loss too instead of being angry, bargaining or denying.
There are NO more drunken times for me- either good or bad. It has taken me almost 5 months to feel that truth.
So I should be stating my BP right now right???? LOL. It is driving me crazy.
Pam
Pam,
It's your hand on that plug running your Beast's life support, and I'd help you pull it if I could, but you're the only one allowed in that room. Nevertheless, you've gone so far, I think it's inevitable.
GT