Memories of good times with a nice buzz - many years of them. Somehow the good times turned bad. Doesn't really matter why, it just did, and there will no longer be "good times" associated with drinking . Those days are gone forever- yeah, I grieve that. I now accept that loss too instead of being angry, bargaining or denying.
There are NO more drunken times for me- either good or bad. It has taken me almost 5 months to feel that truth.
So I should be stating my BP right now right???? LOL. It is driving me crazy.
Pam