I don't understand what to do. I want him to go away. His lies have cost me more than I can bare. But I have kids.. teenager.... and i don't want to hurt them. He is here... even tho I want him gone... even tho the sight of him hurts.
You certainly can leave and I'd start planning it today. Sounds like you and your children are inhabiting a wretched place and while you stay there, nothing will change. So many people on this forum have moved out and started new lives so I hope you ask for advice on the forum! God bless!