Sometimes the hardest thing to do can be the simplest thing to do. If it's hard to do then it can be that I am trying to control it. That's what this is about, I can't control alcohol, those who use it, or very often myself. It's only the realization that God, from my older definition of God, or a higher power, todays definition, is who really is in control.
My rambling may not make sense but maybe it's not suppose to. Making sense to others is control; making sense to myself about something I don't have any control over is letting go to a higher power. Each day is getting better because I no longer worry about tomorrow.
I may lose the battle to alcohol because she is dying from it but it isn't my battle anymore. I can't look at the alcohol as the one running my life; I have to look at a higher power.