caved today...
I teach a small class of adults in the evenings occassionally. It's not through a school and really informal. Today one of the student's friends aparently started thier own spirits company and asked us to taste test the new product. I couldn't believe it, not only was the timing was horrible but nothing like this ever happens! I actually felt a little sick to my stomach since the last time I drank was out of control and didn't want anyone there to see that side of me but I didn't know how to refuse. They all seemed excited to try the new booze and even ordered a big delivery dinner. I drank some having no intention of drinking a lot. I don't even know at what point I convinced myself to keep drinking... at one point several people left, then somone suggested we wrap it up. Now I'm back home still drinking. I'm concerned for a few reasons but mainly because I failed again. I don't know why it's so hard to say no, or just stop before it gets too far.
Any suggestions would be appreciated. I know situations like this will occur again and if I'm going to stop drinking I need to deal with being around booze and not join in. Every time it startes with me saying I'll just have a drink or two then head out. And every time I can't stop it.