Congrats on your 1+ year of sobriety sugarbear! That's an amazing feat that I hope to achieve as well. I will definitely check out those speaker sessions that you mentioned.
desertsong - I think my biggest fear with AA is not knowing how to use it as a helpful tool. I'm just not sure what to expect from a meeting and to be bluntly honest, I'm scared. I just don't think I'm ready for that step yet, but I'm going to continue reading through all of the posts on this forum to see if its something that I'll eventually jump into. Thank you for the tips on battling withdrawal, it's comforting to know that others have gotten through the initial stages.
The warm welcome was just what I needed to see and I'm glad SR will be there through my recovery. Failing is just not an option anymore and I'm tired of disappointing myself and the people that care about me.