Oh, WTBH. I'm so sorry that you're going through this and feel like you do. I completely understand the "Please stop, HP. I'm not as strong as you think I am" feeling.
The only thing I can think to tell you is.... I'm still here. So
t e c h n i c a l l y, I guess my HP was right and I was wrong about me being strong enough to handle the past couple months/years. While I'm still not certain I want to trust my HP's estimation of my strength, I am certain that
your HP is right about
you being strong enough. (Isn't it funny how that works? Being able to easily see some one else's strength?
)
One step at a time, WTBH. That's all you need to do: one step at a time.