Nice to hear from you Vinyl
Thanks for your input everyone - I know if I say to them " I dont want to talk about my sobriety" they will think it's because I'm drinking again but that's OK - I love that part of this mehod that it's an entirely personal decision and process. Just like the choice to drink really. As much as i had 'help' from sponsors/friends in the fellowship etc the decision to drink or not always came down to me and no amount of accountability/support every changed that.
Just did the crash course again (first did it back in Jan)and had a massive AV attack when I got to the end when Jack says if you ever drink alcohol again after making a big plan you should book yourself in for the 4 day course with him in California.
Now I did drink again after doing the course the first time so IT was saying
"there you go you will never truly stay stopped until you go and do that course"
I live in New Zealand so the logistics of getting there are you know difficult
Then I find that I'm rationalising with the beast and that this Californian Suggestion is PURE AV because it
"suggests the future use of alcohol"
I'm recognising but not going to rationalise