It's a very good thought and that is what I am learning to do. Since my future changed a few weeks ago, I am trying to learn the "one day at a time" thing. Last night it really did click inside me. I cannot predict the future. I will not get my hopes up. I can't. We see each other at least twice a week, for the kids and things that they are doing and what he needs to be involved with. We are able to be kind to one another and actually laugh. That's why I feel the way I do. I told him last night and many times before, that I cannot hate him. I cannot be mean and bitter. I won't tear him down and destroy him. Can I do it? Yeah sure, but I don't want to. It won't make me feel any bit better and it won't help him. He wishes I could be mean and tell him off. He feels like he deserves it. I will continue to go to meetings, for me and my kids. No doubt about it. I am learning so much these days and it is making me a more understanding, thoughtful and kind person.