I struggled for years, about 15 years since I knew I had a problem, never able to string more than a year of sobriety, knowing very well that sobriety is the best path for me, and ignoring that voice of reason, over and over - if you keep making mistakes, as i have, its useful to remember that good judgment will eventually come. If it takes 1000 times to learn the same thing, and you finally learn it, there will always be hope, even if you forget it again! (I did) - some of us have to lose a considerable amount of good things, successively more and more serious. it gets loud enough until we have no more options to ignore the lesson.. No soul is ever lost
