Relax. I think that we've all been concerned about what our family, peers, spouses, kids, etc. will think if we stop drinking. I know that I did.
Now I consider sobriety the most important thing in my life. Above my family, peers, spouse, kids, etc. Because without sobriety, I would have lost my family, peers, spouse, kids, etc.
The bad news is, you might be an alcoholic...But the GOOD news is, you might be an alcoholic. And there are a LOT of us out there just like you.
Keep it simple, Take it one day at a time, and keep coming back...
Zube