crap i lost a longish reply due to 'token expired' and didnt do my usual ctrl + c before submit.
Suffice to say my previous post wasnt the whole truth -and the beast wanted to keep it quiet- in that I had been having alot of recent beast activity in hindsight going so far as planning another drugging session and searching online for a potential purchase. I know RR doesnt like to 'count days' but I think it is significant in that this is around the exact time I would usually have relapsed after a couple of months swearing myself of drugs.
I snapped out of it when I had some troubling news recently about a past relationship which Im going to have to deal with in due course but then thinking to myself how great it will be to be able to deal with it form a place of 'secure abstinence'.
Just picked up my RR book for a refresher.