Addicted to Your A
I see people say that they're "addicted to their addict" all the time, and I don't get what this means. This seems to mean anything from "I don't want to spend life alone" to "I actually follow him around and arrange to bump into him in public". Although I've read the big, recommended co-dependency books and have been reading here for over a year, I still don't understand this piece of the pie. Anyone care to elaborate on their own experiences?
In my own life, I can see in retrospect how I've glamorized my RAH and his addictive dysfunctions, and even how I've been attracted to instability (drugs, booze, drama) over stable, normal, nice people since I was a teenager. But truth be told, when we married I thought all of RAH's wildness was in the past and thought I was settling down with one of those nice, ambitious people I used to avoid. Which makes me feel so naive today.