Yes, I was exactly like you. My last binge lasted over 2 years. Not one sober day that I remember. I sought treatment when I knew that death was the next stop for me if something didn't change. It wasn't easy, but it was so worth it.
Somethings I had to learn was to ask for help.....then take it. To forgive myself for being sick. That I don't have to do this alone. There is a lot more, but you will learn as you go. Good luck, we are here for you.
Cathy