I was actually thinking when I read this that this is the reason women do what Justfor1 says. That the courts don't always protect us the way they need to.
But you have to put your trust in that. You have to. Because once you run, you will have to keep running. That's not a good option.
You know what? You ARE strong now because you have to. There WILL come a time when you can break down and cry for three weeks straight if you need to. But now is not that time. You are strong like a grizzly for your kids because you need to be. And we'll be here and prop you up on the sides when you stumble.
You can do this. And you have a good lawyer. It's scary as hell, but you can do it.