Funny, in meditation I'm not looking for anything and I'm not, not looking for anything. I'm simply sitting and counting breaths. Thoughts come, thoughts go, feelings come, feelings go and I still simply sit and count breaths.
The best description I heard for the type of meditation is to do this:
When you sit, sit like a mountain. Your thoughts and feelings are clouds. The mountain doesn't hang on to the clouds and the clouds don't move the mountain.
As for prayer, I don't do it. I don't feel that there is any need to pray. I am complete as I am. I neither want nor need help from an outside spiritual source.
Your friend,