Honestly I am so depressed, when he thought we would go back east together he actually started to take care of and cover his wounds and cut down on stuff a bit, like it gave him hope. You're right, it's a double edged sword. You know I never thought it was wierd he called me to call 911, he was living in a hotel and said he couldn't call from there, that he tried. I was pretty messed, driving cross canada, I guess I wasn't thinking. I guess I'm still not. I may have to go no contact, I just don't know how I'm going to do that.