(((ROSE)))
I too just want to tell you that I am sorry for your pain. I cannot do anything but repeat what has already been said.
You have to think of you first - it is progress not perfection, take it one day at a time. You did the right thing making that phone call, there is no guarantee that the phone call is going to make you feel better, but I bet it didn't make you feel worse either???
You are doing great - keep taking care of Rose!!!