And as I was having a cup of coffee this morning, a realization came over me? Why am I reading all this stuff on mental health and substance abuse and trying to understand HIM over the past year? I should be reading for ME. I used to read tons of books on babies, infants, toddlers, etc to gain insight into my daughter and books for ME. That is what I'm taking on this trip with me. Books for ME and books on raising children. I am not taking anything with me that even resembles some sort of mental health or absue literature. I can see the codependancy behaviors in me over the last year for sure.