Seeking, it is normal and part of the process for an addict to mourn the loss of their love. I agree with KE, we HAVE to get out of the way. Early in recovery when the addict is on their own is the hardest because they MUST choose for themselves. Love your son and stand back. He has to choose for himself.
I have also been where you are and even now I worry daily. What I did find out is that it really doesnt matter if I worry or not, my son is 22 and will do what he wants to do.
Hard pill to swallow.
Hugs and prayers that HP is in charge and always will be.
Teresa