I might humbly suggest that you go to some meetings and start to surround yourself with people who are working a program. Are there any people in recovery you can be around over the next little bit? Naranon or alanon or NA or AA, whichever one's may help. Just a suggestion. 30 meetings in 30 days, that's what I was told. Even if you are not using, 12 step meetings might be helpful for you at this point.